The Price of Fame

I wonder some times if being famous is almost equivelant to selling your soul to the Devil.  The Devil being all the harassing photographers that swarm around the Stars like Bee's on Honey.
I, being an average american blend in the crowds fairly well, I tend to forget the importance of being free to go where ever I like and do what ever I need with complete space and freedom. 
Kristen Stewart, as we all know does not like the camera's or the spot light, but she got caught with another man, who is indeed married with two children.
I feel like everyone has made mistakes and has their own indiscretions to live with, hopefully we learn and grow from our mistakes.  Kristen Stewart is only 22, she is very young and I am sure that she will indeed make many more mistakes in her life time.  But I believe that she should be allowed the opportunity to greive in her own way and with space.  After all, she is an American and has the right to her freedom and privacy.  Whatever Kristen Stewart did in her private life is her business .


Below is a picture snapped of Kristen Stewart as she is walking, grieving, with tears in her eyes and being followed by inconsiderate hungry cameramen snapping her picture. 

I think we should spend a little more time focusing on ourselves and our own actions.  

Breathless

Kelly Jean, get out of bed, "Okay mom" I murmur in my quiet cracked voice.  As I climb out of my bed and my little feet touch the floor I fly back up in the bed and under my covers.  "Mom, I can't go to school today, I'm sick".  My mom sits on my bed and pulls my blanket off of me and starts tickling me, whats wrong are your feet cold?  I laugh and squeal, Mom please drive me to school, "no honey, the cold is good for you, it makes you strong".  My mom grabs me and pulls me out of bed, chills run through my body, I run and grab the warm clothes that my mom set aside for me and I put them on quicker then somebody running with their pants caught on fire.
After I eat my bowl of Captain Crunch, brushing my teeth and combing the knots out of my hair I climb into my snow suit and all my winter gear.  My big sister grabs me, here, let me help you with that scarf, you might need to double up today, it is very cold and you better be able to run!  Run? I can hardly walk in all this stuff.
My sister grabs my arm and pulls me out the door, I am immediately taken back by the sharp wind which leaves me immediatly "breathless".  My sister starts running, and I try to move my little first grade legs and follow her motion.  My sister has quite a bit of distance  on me, trying to keep up I fall over in the snow, my sister is long gone and I struggle to get back up on my feet.  I finally squirm to my feet when another sharp wind nearly knocks me over taking my breath away, I stand with my feet firmly planted in the snow keeping my balance, my eye's watering from the cold.  I am breathless and frozen in place and I feel this amazing warm sensation running down my legs, it feels deliciously wonderful, then I realize what I have done…

Book Club

I'm starting a book club, I may be the only member now but one day it could grow to be two or three members; who knows the possibilities are endless.  ;)  I love to read as you know and write, and I think it is a waste for me to not review these books.  
I am going to list a few books that are in my pipeline for review.

 Night Road

Firefly Lane

Home Front

And Finally…

E L James 

Fifty Shades of Grey

Books in my pipeline to read and review

Movie and book reviews

As I have been writing my first Novel, I have been reading books like crazy, it really is great indulging in all of the different and creative writing styles out there.  I am gearing up to start reviewing these books,  At the same time I am a huge movie buff so I would like to start throwing my review of both books and movies at you.

Oasis of the Sea's

July 14th.


It is so hard to believe that it is the middle of July, this has been a crazy summer.  The highlight of my summer was most certainly going with my daughter to Fort. Lauderdale and spending a couple days their before walking on the most amazing ship, the Royal Caribbean's "Oasis of the Sea's".  As we walked on the ship I felt a hint of emotion, though I would never admit this.


Our trip started with two days in Fort. Lauderdale, we had fun swimming in the Ocean and the infinity pool, we ate at several great restaurants on the beach and also spent a few hours getting manicures and pedicures.

Oasis of the Seas

We arrived on the ship and honestly it was so enormous I felt like I was in the Mall of America.  There were so many people it was crazy.  Once we got to our state room we were greeted by our sweet room attendant.  The room was incredible and I believe the one thing that is really important when you go on a cruise is to have a ocean view balcony.  It was glorious. (see picture below, St. Thomas from our balcony)

I provided much entertainment on Sapphire Beach in St. Thomas when I tried to pet an iguana that was sitting next to me.  It was looking at me with these sad puppy dog eyes so I reached down to pet it and it grabbed a hold of my middle finger and would not let go, it was like a piranha.  I guess I tasted kind of good to him.  He wouldn't leave me the entire time I was at the beach, everyone was freaking out over this little guy, no matter how hard I tried to get rid of him, he wouldn't leave my side.

A picture of Sapphire Beach, St. Thomas

We left Sapphire Beach to check out Coki Beach, I believe this has to be the most beautiful beach in St. Thomas.

St. Maarten's Orient Bay was probably the high light of our trip, we had the best time, the water was so clear and it was fun playing in the waves.  The only problem was at this beach bathing suits were optional.  Can you imagine an 80 year old man walking with a cane and wearing nothing?  

Royal Caribbean is the cruise ship to choose, they do everything possible, going out of their way to make sure that you have the best trip possible.  My one struggle with being on this ship is that I don't know how I could go on another cruise after having the best.

  

Dear Kris Sloan Rice,


I am thinking about the letter you sent me several years ago, your very words were "you were a mistake, you were not suppose to be born, what do you not get about that".
Honestly, I think that I am starting to understand more then ever, my life has been like living 42 years with terminal cancer only with no end in sight.  "Being held a prisoner without bars".
I want you to know that I am going to start rock climbing training, reading books, getting all the gear needed for a spectacular adventure in August.  I am going to find my way to India, Mt. Everest, I am going to climb as high as possible, I hope to spend a night looking at the stars and taking in the beauty around me.  When I reach my highest point I will be soaring like an Eagle high above the clouds.  I am going to go out like I came in; you high on LSD, me high on Mt. Everest.
I want you to know that I do have a voice, my mother was very abusive, she scared the hell out of me, Paul, my ex-husband beat me, slammed me up on walls, stuck his middle finger up my nostrils while beating me.  After I finally left, he abused my son Sam.  Paul is such a nice man that no one would believe me, do you know what it is like to be called a liar when you are begging for the people that matter to know the truth?  Do you know what it is like to experience hell and be told that you are a liar?  
Mt. Everest is my Journey, Mt. Everest will be my voice.


Kris, you should be ashamed of yourself,

Zumba

May 25 is my daughters graduation, let me take a look at the calendar…Today is March 29, 2012 that would make it fifty seven days until graduation and seventy seven days until Aarika and I leave for Ft. Lauderdale where we will spend two days before boarding the Royal Caribbean's Oasis of the Seas.
I have to admit that my thighs are a huge magnet for cottage cheese!  So I have started a 77 day challenge in this challenge I am going to face all of my fears "big crowds" classes offered at LA Fitness such as Zumba, Kickboxing, step aerobics and cycling.  I have been running and I was really excited when I timed my miles this past Monday and realized that I was running a 6 minute mile.
Before I get started on my Zumba class that I did last night at 8:00pm I want to tell you that next Wednesday I have to go see my Doctor and because this date is 04-04-2012 I am going to lose 4 pounds in honor of April 4th.  Can a person lose 4 pounds in a week?  I am not sure but I am going to do it!!
Zumba
in order to really understand me you have to know that I do not like to participate in activities which include large groups.  And you have to know that I don't like mirrors!  People tell me all the time how beautiful I am and they can not understand my low self esteem.  I think this comes from the way I was raised maybe?  Yesterday I ran 3 miles, walked my dog, road my bike and at 7:00pm I looked at the clock and start making excuses for not going to this class. "NO, Kelly, come on you can do this"  At 7:40pm I was putting on my Brooks and feeling sick to my stomach; so I quickly jumped on my feet running down my stairs tripping over my dog; into the garage and jumping into my car; carefully pulling out of my driveway so not to run over one of the hundreds of joggers in my very active South-Side neighborhood.  I arrive at LA Fitness as everyone was walking into the class; looking around I noticed hundreds of beautiful ladies. OMG… this room was surrounded with mirrors from floor to ceiling.  I put my stuff down and found a spot, looking to the left I saw myself in a mirror and nearly jumped out of my skin, OMG I need to go now.  I wanted to run as fast as I could but I planted my feet until the music started.  Once we started to move I realized how much fun it was.  I even found myself loving it and smiling, when we did our turns and I found the mirror in front of me, I would look down, I couldn't look at myself.  What matters is I had a lot of fun, and I can't wait to do it again.  My fear of participating in a large class was stupid.  Just as stupid as my fear of mirrors, I know that I am beautiful, I am blessed with my looks and I need to start embracing myself and loving who I am.  With help, maybe that will happen.
Tonight I will be doing step aerobics, I am really clumsy, but I'm pretty good with step aerobics at home so I should be able to pull it off.  Am I nervous?  Absolutely!  however tomorrow at 9:15am is the cycling class and if I can get through that I can get through ANYTHING.


My goal is to look good in my dress for my daughters graduation, and to feel confident on our vacation.  On the Oasis there is a rock climbing wall, that is my goal; I really want to climb that wall!